Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Map of The Stars

I've just heard about this amazing woman from Sid, and I checked her out on youtube. This reminds me once again to Melissa's 'Map of The Star' and my roommate's constant ignorant comments about women who are over 40, women who are fat, and women who are not pretty in traditional way. I understand most people are like her, and I have to blame them. I mean, I was that way too, maybe that's the way society tried to push on us, but it is our own choice to follow that way or not. I refuse to judge people before giving them a chance to prove themselves first. I don't naturally act that way. I have to kick myself for judging. Well, it's kinda like this: when you see an unusual person, let's say a tiny girl who is sweet-looking, and she is being placed as a commander of a security team. Most people will smirk and maybe even go to the length to protesting the absurd placement. I will at first think, "What?! How can a tiny girl like that being in command of a security team?" But then I'll kick myself and think, "Well okay, let's see first what she can do." When I decide that I will see what I can do, it means that during that 'trial' time, I will follow her command wholeheartedly and unjudgingly, whereas during that time maybe lots of the members of that security team will ignore her commands just to show how pissed they are with the placement. You see, I'm not an angel who can be purely unjudging. I judge, too. But I trained myself to stop judging before I give them a chance.

That's the lesson from the video, and I think it's a very important lesson to learn, but it is number two in the reasons as to why I cry everytime I watch the video (already four times now). The main reason is that I'm grateful that she finally makes her dream come true. She said she's never been given the chance to prove herself, and I'm so, so happy for her that she hits it huge with this one chance she's given. Her voice is amazing too, by the way, just the way I like it. Not too high, strong, and loud. Okay, here's the video: Enjoy.

The discovery of her actually started a discussion between me and Sid, and that discussion reminded me of this song. About how fame affects people, about how society's standard of beauty ruins lives. This song tells a story in a circle, where the end is the beginning. I looooooove it.

All the people in your hometown
When you were just a kid
Said that you were pretty, like in the magazine
And so you left your hometown
To try out for the part
There everybody's pretty little angels with a pretty little heart

You studied hard, the map of the stars
All because you wanted, yeah, you really wanted
Every night you wanted to be
One of the little angels that flies between the stars
One of the little angels in the pretty little cars

So you eat a little less
And you smoke a little more
Waiting in the lines for them to open up the door
For all the little angels

So you got yourself an agent
You made a little deal
They got you on the TV, everyone agreed you had the charm and the appeal
So you bought yourself a house in the Hollywood hills
You bought yourself a tan
Fixed your nose and hair, learned how not to care
Got a pretty little man

You landed hard on the map of the stars
Ah, where everybody wants you,
Oh, they really want you, everynight they want you to be
One of the little angels that flies between the stars
One of the little angels in the pretty little cars

So you eat a little less, and you drink a little more
Waiting in your room for them to open up a door
For all the little angels

Alright, now you drink a little more
Your family's talking to the press
And the movie didn't score
So you eat a little less, just a little little less

All the people on the street now, they're getting kinda mean
They read about your breakup in the magazines
And somewhere in your hometown
A girl tries out her best
Maybe she'll go far, she wants to be a star
So she eats a little less


Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Oops, I Did It Again

Yup, I forgot several names to vote for in the Hot 100 and the other two hots - like I did last year. Well, I know it's virtually impossible to put in all the names I think deserved to be voted for, plus there are some names I'm 100% sure will be in the list anyway, but I feel bad about it. So as my penitence I'll just make a list of the women I forgot to vote for.

Ps. If you have to know, well, it's just my excuse to oggle more beautiful women. :D I'm quite proud of myself for this.

Ps #2: Considering I'm making this 3.15 in the morning, I'll just add whoever in my thougt first and add some more tomorrow or the day after. =D

1. Jennifer Beals

Before you take out my gay ID card for forgetting her, let me tell you that I did NOT forget her. Of course not, she's practically my idea of a perfect woman. I just thought that she would be up there in the list anyway so I voted for some other less popular names instead. But I think I need to droll over her for a little bit here.

I'm the kind of girl who won't care if you're gay or not, if you don't have qualities, I won't like you. Jennifer Beals is not gay but she constantly speaks up for us, and she has shown no less than dedication for the six seasons of The L Word. She is perfectly gorgeous, she is so damned patient and kind to people (I have proofs for that, believe me), she is down to earth and gracious, and she is very professional at what she does (I always find that very, very sexy). Together with Lauren Holloman, her potrayal of Bette Potter showed me a glimpse of how a lesbian marriage could be even before I know Melissa (that was the beginning of season 1. In my Ryanverse, Bette never cheats on Tina). Quite a coincidence, she shares birthday with the second woman I've ever loved. Hehe... maybe that's just the type I'm attracted to? (Damn, I always told myself to aim shorter!!!)

2. Jane Lynch

Damn I really forgot about her - two years in a row!! But that actually suits her job. I mean, she's the master of being 'invicible'. She's been in more movies and tv series than any other actresses I can remember. I've remembered her face even before I know her name and that she's gay, though. Maybe that's because she always steals the scene no matter how small a role she plays? She's really funny, too, and that's always sexy. In real life too. I've watched several interviews of her and she's smartly funny. Besides, who else in Hollywood would eat with such an adorable face?

To be continued...

Monday, April 20, 2009

Serving In Silence

"This has been a crossroads for me, whether to back down or to stand up for what I truly believe is my right as a human being. That my career, my abilities, my contributions, have nothing to do with my sexual orientation. Throughout the world, the only way change can be made is by someone stepping forth and exposing themselves so that people become aware that there are differences and that that's okay. So I choose to be here, to sit before you and my family, and be vulnerable, in the hopes that I can be a little bit of influence in making a change, in allowing us to serve as we have done in the past and will continue to do in the future."

I've always had some general respect towards people who serve in the military. It's more than just the uniform, it's the knowledge that they are the people who give up their freedom to protect their country and their people. Of course that's only speaking in general. I don't know anything about the military and I won't pretend I do.

I do believe in the integrity and good intention of Colonel Margarethe Cammermeyer, though, when she admitted of being a lesbian in a routine security clearance interview. She had been serving for 26 years before that interview. She was a great soldier and had contributed a lot for her oountry. But in 1989 she was discharged from the military for being gay. The quote above was her testimony at her hearing. She was offered to resign quietly, but she refused and instead, she sued the army. Granted, I only watched the movie, "Serving in Silence" (starring Glenn Close and Judy Davis), but these words inspired me once again as 'Milk' did: "Throughout the world, the only way change can be made is by someone stepping forth and exposing themselves so that people become aware that there are differences and that that's okay." Ain't that true. I admire her honesty and I admire her courage to be the one to step forth and expose herself.

Colonel Margarethe Cammermeyer is reinstated in the army in 1994 after a long court battle and she served a total of 31.5 years before her retirement in 1997. She retired with full military previleges.

"People ask, who are we? We are their daughters, their sisters, their sons, their nurses, their mechanics, their athletes, their police. We're your doctors, your fathers, your politicians, your soldiers, your mothers, your friends. We live with you, care for you, help you, protect you, teach you, love you, and need you. All we ask is that you let us."

Sunday, April 12, 2009

THE List

Okay, now it's time again to vote on Afterellen Hot 100. I've never been this excited voting on beautiful women, just because this time I know most of my favorites will win. Last year I voted for 10 women, and 8 of them made the top 20 in that list. That will never happen with the regular 'Hot Women' list in other places. Well, even last year I knew some of my picks wouldn't make the list, like Melissa and Emma Thompson (they're just not in the top of your mind when you're thinking about hotness, anyway. But I love them). But if a 'dorky hot' like Tina Fey can be the hottest woman on earth in Afterellen version (she's on my list too, by the way), then I'll be happy to participate this year too. In fact, I cannot wait till the announcement. And this year they have some side lists, too: 10 Hottest Women of Color, 10 Hottest Out Women, and 10 Hottest Women Over 40. I love these lists soooo much!!!!

Well, I didn't vote for 10 Hottest Women of Color just because I'm not sure what 'women of color' means. Is it only for black women or any other races, and is a mix like Jennifer Beals counts. Well I like Queen Latifah and Wanda Skykes, and in Asia movies I have Michelle Yeoh, etc, but I just don't feel like voting for this list this year. I'll just see at the result later, maybe they'll give me ideas for next year.

So, there are two women for whom I voted for all three categories. There should be three, but for some reason I forget to enter Jodie Foster into my nomination of Hottest Out Women (no pun intended).

1. Melissa Etheridge

D'oh. What do you think? She's absolutely the hottest woman I've ever seen. I just don't care if she makes the list or not (she didn't make the list last year), this is my truth. I voted for her in those three categories, cause she's hot, she's over 40, and hell yeah, she's OUT!

2. Ellen DeGeneres

Again, d'oh. She's hot, simply because funny is hot. And she's so hot for women over 50 (hell yeah, my friends won't believe me when I said she is indeed, OVER 50), and she's practically the most famous lesbian ever. I have no doubt that she'll make the hot list this year too, and very possibly for women over 40, and maybe also the out women too. This woman can do absolutely everything. Besides, who else can dance like this when they're 51?!

Besides these two amazing women, there are several women whom I voted for in two categories:

1. Jodie Foster

Uhm. I believe that the Hot 100 list won't be complete without Jodie. She's the ultimate example of lesbian hotness. Look, check. Strength, check. Brain, check. Attitude, damn, she's got plenty of it. Heh heh. I voted for her in the hot 100 and in the women over 40 category. Just because I forgot about her when I filled in the out women list. Oops.

2. Rachel Maddow

If you ask me who I think will win the hot 100 this year, I think it will be her. Well, it's just what I think, let's see the result later. But heck, it's either love her or hate her with Maddow. She makes nerdy become trendy, and I love how she has so much fun and pours her heart out on every issue she covers. For that only, she gets my vote in hot 100 and hottest out women. Oh, and by the way, I like the more feminime look she has on TV, but dang, I absolutely love those glasses.

3. Gro Hammerseng

I don't know how or why, but she stole my heart somewhere during this year. I don't even remember how it started. What I know is that suddenly I can't take my eyes off of her. Aargh. So I put her in my list of hot 100 and hottest out women. Besides, who can not melt while being looked at with such love and adoration?

Ookay. Now for the rest of my Hot 100 nominations are:
1. Lucy Lawless

Okay, I still think her Xena look is the hottest, but dang, Lucy has her own attitude that makes her also hot on her own.

2. Lena Headey

Terminator? What terminator? Isn't she the hot florist down the street?

3. Tina Fey

Funny is sexy. Dorky is sexy. Funny dork? Even sexier.

4. Portia DeRossi

Okay, I'm guilty. Before this year, I only think of her as a hot barbie who happens to be Ellen's wife, although my logic said that if Ellen loves her, there has to be something more in her than just her look. But there's almost nothing I could use to judge her with. Until this t-shirt. Dang, she's hot. Lol, seriously, though, I watched her on Ellen and I watched clips of 'Better Off Ted' and I started to envy Ellen - just a bit. Heh heh.

5. Lisa Ray

I don't know why... I saw her in 'I Can't Think Straight', and damn, she looked like the mix between Angelina Jolie and my second crush... who am I to resist the temptation? :D

Dang. I've just figured making this list on 5 am isn't a good idea. Now it's already 6 am. Okay, on to my out women list.

Cathy DeBuono

Don't kill me, Sid, but I think she looks like a gay version of Git, maybe not so much in this picture, but... I swear there's something about her that is so much like Git. Fortunatelly, the hotness I find in her has nothing to do with her likeness with Git. Haha.

Finally! The hottest women over 40 list:

1. Emma Thompson

She is one of the most lady-like persona I've ever seen in Hollywood. She's charming, funny, an undeniably talented actress, and her honest attitude only adds more to her hotness. Besides, who else could make Prof. Trelawney become so memorable?

2. Glenn Close

I have to admit, I've only watched one of her movies... well, three, if you count 101 and 102 Dalmatians, but I absolutely hated her character and I almost don't remember her performance because I was too little to understand acting. Anyway, I loooove her in 'Serving in Silence'. She brought such dignity, honor, and purity to the character, and she was one of the firsts in my mind when I came to this list.

Okay, so let's see how many I got this year. Haha. Right now I've gotta sleep. I only have 5 more hours before I've gotta wake up! Gezzz.